4.19.26
Very blunt title, but I don't know what else to title this. Concha was diagnosed with Prostatitis and Arthritis in his hind legs 2 days ago and I've been very worried about him.. I haven't been able to find any medical information or personal accounts of inflamation of the prostate in rats, so I've been just monitoring him closely. I seperated him into a hospital cage 3 days ago to keep an eye on him and let him rest. It seems to hurt more when he stands up or tries to climb on stuff, but the little guy is still trying to move around! Concha is surprisingly unexpressive considering how nasty this is; I suspected a UTI because his only symptom at the time was persistent dark urine. The vet gave me Meloxidil (Anti-inflamatory), Bactrim (Antibiotic), and a urine sample cup. He's taken 4 doses of medicine as of writing and I haven't gotten the urine sample yet.
Since the day of his appointment, he hasn't been eating his regular food pellets. So far he's only been eating (plain) Cheerios, baby puffs, Pedialyte, eggs, yogurt, baby food, and some fruits. I've been mixing baby Pedialyte into his soft foods to keep him hydrated. I couldn't find the spare water bottle, and this is the one time I appreciate the annoying water bottle sounds. He has a shallow bowl of water that he keeps trying to hide by covering it with paper bedding, which leads to me replacing his water every few hours. -.- Atleast I know he's still active. I'm hoping that he'll get back to his normal self soon, but the sudden diet change isn't a good sign.. The boys are a little over 1 year old, and they're getting to the age where health issues are becoming more common. The only other time I've experienced Prostatitis was with Bigfoot, and he had to be put down because his chances of recovery were extremely low. :-( I'm trying to stay positive, but I can't help the feeling that he's not going to recover from this. An inflamed prostate can be healed in humans, but I'm not so sure about the chances in older rats. The vet did point out the inflamation in his X-ray and explain some stuff to me, but I wasn't fully present.. I've had 4 rats die in the past from complications of old age, illness, etc. and I've had to get used to seeing them deteriorate in their final days. Concha's a strong guy and he's still doing good, but I can't help but feel like I'm just lying to myself.
His brothers miss him but I haven't let him back into the cage or playpen with the other two because Chayote plays rough, and I don't want to stress Concha out more than necessary. Maybe I'll put his hospital cage in the playpen so they can see that he's still alive. And in the worst case scenario, let them see his body before we bury him. Xuxu is usually a jerk, but he's been lying with Duende more often recently, and he lies with me when I visit them in the playpen. :-( I hope he's going to be okay.
4.2.26
Hi! So I did kind of lie about getting my laptop repaired 'soon', but I've sold quite a few things on Depop to pay for the replacement part. I'm hoping to get it done about 2 weeks from now. 2 weeks because I have the My Life With The Thrill Kill Kult concert coming up next Friday!!!! I've been getting better at driving, but I'm not confident enough to drive to the repair shop myself... So I have to wait for when my dad can take me. Beggars can't be choosers... I'll update when those happen, but today I went to a craft store to get embroidery thread. On the way home, the magical forces of the local thrift store called me in... I couldn't resist the temptation.. This thrift store has been my absolute favorite and I always find real gems here. I've found Tripp NYC, Royal Bones, and other 'goth' brands for real good prices consistently for almost 10 years. Their CD selection is pretty average, a bunch of Reba and easy listening compilation CDs. But today I found a real treat!
Crazy!!! They're all in really nice condition! The jewel cases are a little scratched, but I don't care as long as the discs are fine. I've been thinking of making a page for my CD collection and adding my recent crafts aswell. So much to do, but I've been working with my laptop from high school until my laptop gets fixed. This laptop is slow as fuck!!!
3.25.26
Two posts in one day! Wow! The other one was posted at like 1 AM.. I'm going to try to get my laptop repair done on Friday, and I've been working on some stuff. I have a scrapped Nick x Rochelle SFM Poster that I wanted to redo before my laptop started being fucky. I have the background and lighting set up already, which I used for the Rochelle poster I uploaded recently, but no duo pose ideas... It isn't a porn poster believe it or not. I honestly only bother with SFM for my franick porn anyways LOL, but I need some variety and practice. I'll work on that as soon as possible, but until then I have been working on a genderbent franick fic. ^.^ I've mostly written in AP format for the past few years (Journalism in High School) and I feel like ChatGPT. I'm also very hydrated like ChatGPT. My two main issues are writing without sounding too professional and trying to stay in character. I've lived in the south my whole life and the furthest I've been from the south was visiting in Nevada. I'm not an etomology nerd or racist, I'm not very good at identifying regional US accents. Nick is inferred to be from up north, and I think Francis is from Pennsylvania since it was mentioned that he was atleast arrested there in the comics. Close enough! I'll do some research to try to make them sound right. I don't know when I'll finish the Franick fic, but I'll post it on AO3. I try to proof-read as I go but if they still sound like hicks, sorry.
3.25.26
I've always been rather quiet and kept to myself. When I was a kid on Club Penguin, Roblox, MSP, Jumpstart (this was my SHIT!!!!), etc. I never spoke to people, I just logged on to play my game and leave. I did end up joining fandoms when I was like 14 on tumblr, twitter & everskies, which is when I got mega canceled. I was in the TCC from like, 2017-2023 (Became a lurker after 2020), and eventually left because the community was becoming overrun with discord edgelords.. and nazis... But this was what got me uber canceled because I hadn't disclosed that I was in the TCC while also being in like, MLP spaces and shit. I was 14, okay? On that topic, I've never felt connection or community in 'socially acceptable' fandom spaces but I've always found community with 'degens' and outcasts online. I've never had even a sliver of the support I've recieved from latex horsegirls and guro fetishists when I was in 'normal' communities. Ever since that incident, I've been especially wary of joining online communities because I get so paranoid that I'm going to get witch hunted again... My art tumblr is getting a little popular, and I kinda only use SFM for my porn nowadays, and I keep getting a gnawing feeling in my head that someone is going to connect it to my main blog and 'expose' me for being into weird porn games. It feels ridiculous, but I've also been online enough to know this 100% does happen. I didn't make an art blog to become a celebrity SFM user with my shitty posters, but the engagement is nice. I've made a few friends through it and it makes the paranoia feel worse every time we interact. I'm not being secretive and sneaky about what I like, I just don't think it's necessary to wear a dunce cap that says 'I HAVE CONTROVERSIAL FETISHES', you know? Without trying to sound like an 'alpha wolf' or an edgelord, I've been alone for long enough that I'd be authentically me and lonely anyday before I make a sanitized personality to fit in with people who won't accept me for who I am. I've been feeling emo and unmedicated this past week.
3.20.26
I've been using Canva to make a mockup of my ita bag insert! I will finally work on it! I still need to design the pins, but this time I really do have an excuse for not doing it yet. I still haven't gotten my laptop repaired because I'm too humiliated to show my face at the repair shop again (and I'm scared that I won't be able to afford the repairs rn). In the mean time, I've been working on my insert design. I didn't want to do a repeat bag because of manufacturing costs, so I went with a decorated background instead. I gathered some inspo as I went and landed on this design. I tried to be as cost-concious as possible while designing it because I am #poor.
Side note, these aren't my final pin and PC designs, I used the only photos I have on my phone as placeholders. I went through a lot of variations and modifications through this, which is why I did a mockup instead of jumping right into it. I kept faithful to his color pallete of white, blue and gold. Finding blues in his specific color was very difficult, but I tried to stay in the same hue range. You can't really tell with some of the Canva elements, but hopefully all the ribbon I ordered is acceptable in person! While I'm happy with the design for the most part, I haven't been able to decide on something I like for the bottom corner. I wanted to put my nui in the corner, but his big ass head would cover up the toploader. I have some leftover felt and I've been considering making a cute felt nui to cover up the space? I don't know yet, but I didn't want to make the insert completely symmetrical... I don't have much else to say here because this is just the mockup and not the final thing, I'll update when everything arrives.
3.1.26
I went to the mall with my brother today. Apparently there was a huge fight in the food court yesterday, but it was still crowded AF. Unsurprising for a Sunday... I don't go to the mall very often since I only care for a small selection of stores, most notably Miniso and Barnes & Nobles. My B&N sucks nuts and the manga section is 99% isekai slop, and the 'mature' section is very slim, but they atleast have Calico Critters... I wasn't allowed to have Calico Critters as a kid (they were too expensive), but now that I have adult money I can continue to window-shop for them. I walked around for a bit, but I only ended up buying 2 blind boxes at Miniso. The Kewpie Baby figure boxes have me in a chokehold! I have 10 of them, two of which are duplicates, but they're so damn cute!!! I'm mostly immune to blind-box propaganda surprisingly, I avoid them if there's even one prize that I don't like. Hot Topic and Spencers are two stores I typically visit (Unsurprisingly), but they were boring.. The unfortunate thing about liking a lot of "obscure" (for lack of better word?) genres is that Hot Topic becomes very mundane. The band tee selection plus whatever other shit they sell nowadays. The jewelry is meh, almost always too expensive to be worth it. Some of the My Little Pony stuff is cute however, but I don't need any jewelry. That's the crafters curse: "Why buy it for 15 dollars when I can make it with my 30+ dollars tools and supplies?" I do more supply hoarding than actual crafting, but it comes in handy sometimes!
I haven't gotten to go out in a while (life has been busy, car battery died, my mom's car feels funny to drive), and even though I quite hate the mall, it was nice to get outside. And get new toys. I didn't get a picture of my outfit, oops! Maybe next 'outing' blog post will include photos. I have miserably little phone storage right now, anyways..