4.2.26
Hi! So I did kind of lie about getting my laptop repaired 'soon', but I've sold quite a few things on Depop to pay for the replacement part. I'm hoping to get it done about 2 weeks from now. 2 weeks because I have the My Life With The Thrill Kill Kult concert coming up next Friday!!!! I've been getting better at driving, but I'm not confident enough to drive to the repair shop myself... So I have to wait for when my dad can take me. Beggars can't be choosers... I'll update when those happen, but today I went to a craft store to get embroidery thread. On the way home, the magical forces of the local thrift store called me in... I couldn't resist the temptation.. This thrift store has been my absolute favorite and I always find real gems here. I've found Tripp NYC, Royal Bones, and other 'goth' brands for real good prices consistently for almost 10 years. Their CD selection is pretty average, a bunch of Reba and easy listening compilation CDs. But today I found a real treat!
Crazy!!! They're all in really nice condition! The jewel cases are a little scratched, but I don't care as long as the discs are fine. I've been thinking of making a page for my CD collection and adding my recent crafts aswell. So much to do, but I've been working with my laptop from high school until my laptop gets fixed. This laptop is slow as fuck!!!
3.25.26
Two posts in one day! Wow! The other one was posted at like 1 AM.. I'm going to try to get my laptop repair done on Friday, and I've been working on some stuff. I have a scrapped Nick x Rochelle SFM Poster that I wanted to redo before my laptop started being fucky. I have the background and lighting set up already, which I used for the Rochelle poster I uploaded recently, but no duo pose ideas... It isn't a porn poster believe it or not. I honestly only bother with SFM for my franick porn anyways LOL, but I need some variety and practice. I'll work on that as soon as possible, but until then I have been working on a genderbent franick fic. ^.^ I've mostly written in AP format for the past few years (Journalism in High School) and I feel like ChatGPT. I'm also very hydrated like ChatGPT. My two main issues are writing without sounding too professional and trying to stay in character. I've lived in the south my whole life and the furthest I've been from the south was visiting in Nevada. I'm not an etomology nerd or racist, I'm not very good at identifying regional US accents. Nick is inferred to be from up north, and I think Francis is from Pennsylvania since it was mentioned that he was atleast arrested there in the comics. Close enough! I'll do some research to try to make them sound right. I don't know when I'll finish the Franick fic, but I'll post it on AO3. I try to proof-read as I go but if they still sound like hicks, sorry.
3.25.26
I've always been rather quiet and kept to myself. When I was a kid on Club Penguin, Roblox, MSP, Jumpstart (this was my SHIT!!!!), etc. I never spoke to people, I just logged on to play my game and leave. I did end up joining fandoms when I was like 14 on tumblr, twitter & everskies, which is when I got mega canceled. I was in the TCC from like, 2017-2023 (Became a lurker after 2020), and eventually left because the community was becoming overrun with discord edgelords.. and nazis... But this was what got me uber canceled because I hadn't disclosed that I was in the TCC while also being in like, MLP spaces and shit. I was 14, okay? On that topic, I've never felt connection or community in 'socially acceptable' fandom spaces but I've always found community with 'degens' and outcasts online. I've never had even a sliver of the support I've recieved from latex horsegirls and guro fetishists when I was in 'normal' communities. Ever since that incident, I've been especially wary of joining online communities because I get so paranoid that I'm going to get witch hunted again... My art tumblr is getting a little popular, and I kinda only use SFM for my porn nowadays, and I keep getting a gnawing feeling in my head that someone is going to connect it to my main blog and 'expose' me for being into weird porn games. It feels ridiculous, but I've also been online enough to know this 100% does happen. I didn't make an art blog to become a celebrity SFM user with my shitty posters, but the engagement is nice. I've made a few friends through it and it makes the paranoia feel worse every time we interact. I'm not being secretive and sneaky about what I like, I just don't think it's necessary to wear a dunce cap that says 'I HAVE CONTROVERSIAL FETISHES', you know? Without trying to sound like an 'alpha wolf' or an edgelord, I've been alone for long enough that I'd be authentically me and lonely anyday before I make a sanitized personality to fit in with people who won't accept me for who I am. I've been feeling emo and unmedicated this past week.
3.20.26
I've been using Canva to make a mockup of my ita bag insert! I will finally work on it! I still need to design the pins, but this time I really do have an excuse for not doing it yet. I still haven't gotten my laptop repaired because I'm too humiliated to show my face at the repair shop again (and I'm scared that I won't be able to afford the repairs rn). In the mean time, I've been working on my insert design. I didn't want to do a repeat bag because of manufacturing costs, so I went with a decorated background instead. I gathered some inspo as I went and landed on this design. I tried to be as cost-concious as possible while designing it because I am #poor.
Side note, these aren't my final pin and PC designs, I used the only photos I have on my phone as placeholders. I went through a lot of variations and modifications through this, which is why I did a mockup instead of jumping right into it. I kept faithful to his color pallete of white, blue and gold. Finding blues in his specific color was very difficult, but I tried to stay in the same hue range. You can't really tell with some of the Canva elements, but hopefully all the ribbon I ordered is acceptable in person! While I'm happy with the design for the most part, I haven't been able to decide on something I like for the bottom corner. I wanted to put my nui in the corner, but his big ass head would cover up the toploader. I have some leftover felt and I've been considering making a cute felt nui to cover up the space? I don't know yet, but I didn't want to make the insert completely symmetrical... I don't have much else to say here because this is just the mockup and not the final thing, I'll update when everything arrives.
3.15.26
I'm writing this as of 3.16, but don't even worry about it! I went shopping with my mom today at Daiso, Micheal's, my old Goodwill, and an estate sale. My outfit was bland, but I just started my period and I couldn't be bothered today.
Shirt: Reality Fade
Skirt: Thrifted
Shoes: Thrifted (unused!) Doc Marten sandals
Jewelry: Jelly Bands from a vintage Hot Topic jewelry lot on Ebay, spike cuff probably Hot Topic ~7 years ago? Forgot where the necklace is from.
I wear these sandals 99% of the time I go out LOL they're comfy and quick to put on. It was so damn windy today!! I tied my hair into a little garlic nub 'pony tail' so it wouldn't be everywhere. My hair is at an awkward point of growing it out, and it tests my sanity daily. An ugly bob-mullet thing but I need to stay strong and leave it alone... I went to Micheals to look for ribbon, and unfortunately didn't find any. The pinks are always a very similar hue, but blue ribbon that is a true baby blue is so damn hard to find!! Everything is too teal!!! Instead, I got a nice crafting knife. I use a single unsecured utility blade to cut out stuff and it is very hard to do neatly, and I figured it would be a nice investment. After Micheal's, we were on the way to a Daiso before we got side-tracked with an estate sale. I was skeptical at first, but I found some cute things and they were having a 70% off sale! I got a cute polka dot dress and a little ceramic container thing for a few bucks. They had a lot of interesting things, and a lot of unique cultural items from Chinese, Japanese, African (I know Africa is a continent, these were behind a display and I didn't get a picture, so I'm not sure of which regions specifically), and I believe German traditions. Very interesting! They also had a lot of really nice jewelry, I saw an adorable prayer box one but it was too expensive for me. The jewelry wasn't on sale unfortunately. After that we went to Daiso, where I spent way too much money on craft supplies. I have an addiction. This Daiso is further from my home but has a lot more craft stuff than the one closest to me, but they didn't have basic toploaders in the size I needed -_- Oh well, I found plenty of other good stuff to keep me busy. Mostly nice frill trims and pearl stickers. I also found a really cute photo picket fan keychain!! I haven't decorated it yet, but I was surprised to see them. After spending Too Much at Daiso, my mom dragged me along to my old Goodwill... I used to work at Goodwill when I was 16. I don't reccomend it. My managers were pieces of shit & one was a pedo, and corporate wasn't much better. It's been a few years and these people have either died (coworker besties groupchat drama) or gotten fired, so it was peaceful! It still stinks in there though. I found a cute top for myself, a present for a friends birthday coming soon, and a cute little rosary. I found a little crown ring in the parking lot, I think it's Mardi Gras themed? Maybe it's just because it's purple, but it's cute. No picture of the Daiso haul because I forgot it in the car.
3.1.26
I went to the mall with my brother today. Apparently there was a huge fight in the food court yesterday, but it was still crowded AF. Unsurprising for a Sunday... I don't go to the mall very often since I only care for a small selection of stores, most notably Miniso and Barnes & Nobles. My B&N sucks nuts and the manga section is 99% isekai slop, and the 'mature' section is very slim, but they atleast have Calico Critters... I wasn't allowed to have Calico Critters as a kid (they were too expensive), but now that I have adult money I can continue to window-shop for them. I walked around for a bit, but I only ended up buying 2 blind boxes at Miniso. The Kewpie Baby figure boxes have me in a chokehold! I have 10 of them, two of which are duplicates, but they're so damn cute!!! I'm mostly immune to blind-box propaganda surprisingly, I avoid them if there's even one prize that I don't like. Hot Topic and Spencers are two stores I typically visit (Unsurprisingly), but they were boring.. The unfortunate thing about liking a lot of "obscure" (for lack of better word?) genres is that Hot Topic becomes very mundane. The band tee selection plus whatever other shit they sell nowadays. The jewelry is meh, almost always too expensive to be worth it. Some of the My Little Pony stuff is cute however, but I don't need any jewelry. That's the crafters curse: "Why buy it for 15 dollars when I can make it with my 30+ dollars tools and supplies?" I do more supply hoarding than actual crafting, but it comes in handy sometimes!
I haven't gotten to go out in a while (life has been busy, car battery died, my mom's car feels funny to drive), and even though I quite hate the mall, it was nice to get outside. And get new toys. I didn't get a picture of my outfit, oops! Maybe next 'outing' blog post will include photos. I have miserably little phone storage right now, anyways..
2.27.2026
I've gotten a few questions about these, and I decided to make a tutorial. You will need to know the X-Base stitch to make this. I saw KandiToyBox made Fluffy covers with a double stitch, but I wanted to experiment with a modified X-Base version. ^.^ Rewritten with better method! Now this can work as fluffies covers or a leg garter!
Final Product example
Supplies: You will need a thick, nonstretchy string/cord (I used T-shirt Jersey), stretchy string (I don't recommend fishing line or stretch magic because it needs to stretch, & stretch magic isn't durable), pony beads, and optionally accent beads and a lighter. I hope this is obvious, but do not use a thin stretchy string as the lace-up string because it will cheese-wire your legs, and won't hold.
1. Cut your stretchy string. I cut about a wingspan amount because you'll need a lot.
2. Add your beads to the string in a 1-3-1 pattern until the BEADED section can wrap almost completely around underneath your knee. Make sure you have one accent bead on each end. Leave about a ~2 inch gap so you can lace it up later. I did 49 beads total, but this depends on your leg size.
3. Pull your string tight, and tie a thick knot on each end to prevent the beads from slipping out. I got impatient and frustrated and used two tiny pony beads to keep the knot from slipping out, and it was easier to keep it taut.
4. Thread your string through your closest accent bead, then start adding beads. Add 5 beads to your string then go through the next accent bead. This is the same as the regular x-base stitch pattern until you get to the other end.
5. After getting to the other end, follow the arrow from the image above. Thread back up into the spike until you get to the peak/accent bead, and repeat step 4. This will get you to one full X. This is how tall I make mine, but you can make it taller if you like.
6. Once you get to the end, add on beads in a 2-1-3 pattern. Two of your base color, one accent, and three of your base color again. This will make the corner stitch into a full X. Don't worry, we get to the other side soon.
7. To start closing it up, add three if your base color beads inbetween each peak. This is the standard X-base stitch again.
8. Repeat step 6, but in reverse. Add your beads in a 3-1-2 pattern and thread it down in the middle bead of the X and tie.
9. You finished the base! Now to add the thread to tie it around your leg. I used t-shirt jersey because that's what I have on hand, but you can use ribbon, yarn, etc. Thread it into the top corner beads, and the bottom corner beads. Kind of like threading shoelaces. I used the tail of a comb to shove the jersey through the beads. Adding a corset back makes this easy to adjust, and customizeable!
10. If you want to add 3D spikes to it, it's the exact same as a 3D X-base cuff. If you want to add the dangling threads like my example, thread a scrap of your thicker string through the bottom accent bead, add beads, and tie the bottom. Make sure your knot is thick enough so the beads can't fall through. You can also add beads to the tie-back strings, but be aware that these click-clack when you walk lol. You can also add pom-poms inbetween the gaps of the X'es to add dimension and color, but I ran out.
And that's how it's done! If you need clarification or make this, please send it my way! I would love to see it. ^.^