5.14.26
I can't catch a fucking break, can I? As soon as one problem is resolved, another appeared. I had put Concha back into the cage & seperated Chayote into the hospital cage for a few days because he was being a dick, and his time in solitary confinement has taught him to be nice. He's back in the cage with the other two and he is (mostly) well behaved. That's resolved, but Duende is starting to grow two lumps. I've seen one small lump on his upper back a week ago & I've been monitoring its size & progression, but a second lump has gone under my radar. I have felt that his butt is getting a little bony because he's getting older, so this had gone unnoticed because I had assumed it was just his butt bones until I inspected it. I'm not sure how long it has been there. Both of these are roughly in the area of the sebaceous glands, where cysts seem to be more common in males, so I'm hoping they're cysts!!! I've experienced cysts in males in the past and the smaller one feels about the same, but the one on his lower back feels odd. They're both very solid and a uniform shape, the one on his upper back is small and round but the one on his lower back feels almost frisbee shaped. Cysts typically pop and clear on their own, I have an antibiotic that I'll be giving him and I'll keep an eye on the progression of his lumps. I also have spray saline & Blu-Kote that I'll use to clean them up if they pop on their own.
To end on some good news, I have gotten my labret to an 8 gauge! I custom ordered some glass 6g & 4g jewelry through Body Art Forms (My saviour), and they should arrive in 2 months or so. I'll start prepping to stretch to a 6g when BAF recieves the jewelry. I ordered the jewelry together to save time and shipping costs. I can't wait to get to 0g! My goal is to get to 0g and have a nice clear glass labret. I looove the look of clear jewlery in large gauge piercings... soooo keewwwll.
5.3.26
This is very short because I don't have much to say but I am glad to say that Concha has healed very well from his Prostatitis! I was extremely worried when he was diagnosed because I couldn't find any relevant information about it in rats, but he's healed quickly and smoothly. After about 2 weeks of medication and rest in a hospital cage, he's energetic and his diet has gone back to normal. I've been working on getting him back with his brothers, but that hasn't gone as smoothly. I've been reintroducing him slowly because they had some major tension the last time they saw eachother. Duende seems scared of him surprisingly, but Chayote is an asshole. Dominance displays and aggressive behavior is common during introductions, but there has been only one instance where I deemed it necessary to immediately seperate them. Chayote isn't aggressive at all with Duende, just to fatty. Nevertheless, I've only been doing reintroductions for a few days, and hopefully this will get cleared up by the end of the week! Concha is getting antsy in the hospital cage, but I don't want to put him in the main cage until I'm sure that they won't fight/seriously harm eachother when I'm not in the room.
4.19.26
I actually finished this 2 weeks ago, but I was busy.. I've dreamed of having an ita bag for many years, and I finally got to make my own! Can't you tell I like Nick?
Photos
Purse: Taobao
Plush keychains & pin: Designed by me, ordered from Vograce
Acrylic Keychain: Commission from a friend, ordered from Wooacry
Flip Phone keychain: Taobao (Brand is Toy Spirits, I can't find the Taobao link)
Ruffle pouch: Daiso
I designed/made the insert, rosette, toploader deco, and the Nendoroid. I didn't make the photo in the toploader, I can't remember for the life of me who made it!!! I want to replace it with my own photo sometime soon. I learned how to use SFM to make the stuff for my ita bag actually, and to make SFM porn. lol. I quit most forms of art a few years ago, but my love for Nick prevailed and convinced me to get back into it. I even learned how to use new software & new materials~ I love my bag so so much and it makes me so happy. I hope to add more to the inside pouch, but I have some other stuff to focus on right now. Someday!
4.19.26
Very blunt title, but I don't know what else to title this. Concha was diagnosed with Prostatitis and Arthritis in his hind legs 2 days ago and I've been very worried about him.. I haven't been able to find any medical information or personal accounts of inflamation of the prostate in rats, so I've been just monitoring him closely. I seperated him into a hospital cage 3 days ago to keep an eye on him and let him rest. It seems to hurt more when he stands up or tries to climb on stuff, but the little guy is still trying to move around! Concha is surprisingly unexpressive considering how nasty this is; I suspected a UTI because his only symptom at the time was persistent dark urine. The vet gave me Meloxidil (Anti-inflamatory), Bactrim (Antibiotic), and a urine sample cup. He's taken 4 doses of medicine as of writing and I haven't gotten the urine sample yet.
Since the day of his appointment, he hasn't been eating his regular food pellets. So far he's only been eating (plain) Cheerios, baby puffs, Pedialyte, eggs, yogurt, baby food, and some fruits. I've been mixing baby Pedialyte into his soft foods to keep him hydrated. I couldn't find the spare water bottle, and this is the one time I appreciate the annoying water bottle sounds. He has a shallow bowl of water that he keeps trying to hide by covering it with paper bedding, which leads to me replacing his water every few hours. -.- Atleast I know he's still active. I'm hoping that he'll get back to his normal self soon, but the sudden diet change isn't a good sign.. The boys are a little over 1 year old, and they're getting to the age where health issues are becoming more common. The only other time I've experienced Prostatitis was with Bigfoot, and he had to be put down because his chances of recovery were extremely low. :-( I'm trying to stay positive, but I can't help the feeling that he's not going to recover from this. An inflamed prostate can be healed in humans, but I'm not so sure about the chances in older rats. The vet did point out the inflamation in his X-ray and explain some stuff to me, but I wasn't fully present.. I've had 4 rats die in the past from complications of old age, illness, etc. and I've had to get used to seeing them deteriorate in their final days. Concha's a strong guy and he's still doing good, but I can't help but feel like I'm just lying to myself.
His brothers miss him but I haven't let him back into the cage or playpen with the other two because Chayote plays rough, and I don't want to stress Concha out more than necessary. Maybe I'll put his hospital cage in the playpen so they can see that he's still alive. And in the worst case scenario, let them see his body before we bury him. Xuxu is usually a jerk, but he's been lying with Duende more often recently, and he lies with me when I visit them in the playpen. :-( I hope he's going to be okay.
4.2.26
Hi! So I did kind of lie about getting my laptop repaired 'soon', but I've sold quite a few things on Depop to pay for the replacement part. I'm hoping to get it done about 2 weeks from now. 2 weeks because I have the My Life With The Thrill Kill Kult concert coming up next Friday!!!! I've been getting better at driving, but I'm not confident enough to drive to the repair shop myself... So I have to wait for when my dad can take me. Beggars can't be choosers... I'll update when those happen, but today I went to a craft store to get embroidery thread. On the way home, the magical forces of the local thrift store called me in... I couldn't resist the temptation.. This thrift store has been my absolute favorite and I always find real gems here. I've found Tripp NYC, Royal Bones, and other 'goth' brands for real good prices consistently for almost 10 years. Their CD selection is pretty average, a bunch of Reba and easy listening compilation CDs. But today I found a real treat!
Crazy!!! They're all in really nice condition! The jewel cases are a little scratched, but I don't care as long as the discs are fine. I've been thinking of making a page for my CD collection and adding my recent crafts aswell. So much to do, but I've been working with my laptop from high school until my laptop gets fixed. This laptop is slow as fuck!!!
3.25.26
Two posts in one day! Wow! The other one was posted at like 1 AM.. I'm going to try to get my laptop repair done on Friday, and I've been working on some stuff. I have a scrapped Nick x Rochelle SFM Poster that I wanted to redo before my laptop started being fucky. I have the background and lighting set up already, which I used for the Rochelle poster I uploaded recently, but no duo pose ideas... It isn't a porn poster believe it or not. I honestly only bother with SFM for my franick porn anyways LOL, but I need some variety and practice. I'll work on that as soon as possible, but until then I have been working on a genderbent franick fic. ^.^ I've mostly written in AP format for the past few years (Journalism in High School) and I feel like ChatGPT. I'm also very hydrated like ChatGPT. My two main issues are writing without sounding too professional and trying to stay in character. I've lived in the south my whole life and the furthest I've been from the south was visiting in Nevada. I'm not an etomology nerd or racist, I'm not very good at identifying regional US accents. Nick is inferred to be from up north, and I think Francis is from Pennsylvania since it was mentioned that he was atleast arrested there in the comics. Close enough! I'll do some research to try to make them sound right. I don't know when I'll finish the Franick fic, but I'll post it on AO3. I try to proof-read as I go but if they still sound like hicks, sorry.
3.25.26
I've always been rather quiet and kept to myself. When I was a kid on Club Penguin, Roblox, MSP, Jumpstart (this was my SHIT!!!!), etc. I never spoke to people, I just logged on to play my game and leave. I did end up joining fandoms when I was like 14 on tumblr, twitter & everskies, which is when I got mega canceled. I was in the TCC from like, 2017-2023 (Became a lurker after 2020), and eventually left because the community was becoming overrun with discord edgelords.. and nazis... But this was what got me uber canceled because I hadn't disclosed that I was in the TCC while also being in like, MLP spaces and shit. I was 14, okay? On that topic, I've never felt connection or community in 'socially acceptable' fandom spaces but I've always found community with 'degens' and outcasts online. I've never had even a sliver of the support I've recieved from latex horsegirls and guro fetishists when I was in 'normal' communities. Ever since that incident, I've been especially wary of joining online communities because I get so paranoid that I'm going to get witch hunted again... My art tumblr is getting a little popular, and I kinda only use SFM for my porn nowadays, and I keep getting a gnawing feeling in my head that someone is going to connect it to my main blog and 'expose' me for being into weird porn games. It feels ridiculous, but I've also been online enough to know this 100% does happen. I didn't make an art blog to become a celebrity SFM user with my shitty posters, but the engagement is nice. I've made a few friends through it and it makes the paranoia feel worse every time we interact. I'm not being secretive and sneaky about what I like, I just don't think it's necessary to wear a dunce cap that says 'I HAVE CONTROVERSIAL FETISHES', you know? Without trying to sound like an 'alpha wolf' or an edgelord, I've been alone for long enough that I'd be authentically me and lonely anyday before I make a sanitized personality to fit in with people who won't accept me for who I am. I've been feeling emo and unmedicated this past week.
3.20.26
I've been using Canva to make a mockup of my ita bag insert! I will finally work on it! I still need to design the pins, but this time I really do have an excuse for not doing it yet. I still haven't gotten my laptop repaired because I'm too humiliated to show my face at the repair shop again (and I'm scared that I won't be able to afford the repairs rn). In the mean time, I've been working on my insert design. I didn't want to do a repeat bag because of manufacturing costs, so I went with a decorated background instead. I gathered some inspo as I went and landed on this design. I tried to be as cost-concious as possible while designing it because I am #poor.
Side note, these aren't my final pin and PC designs, I used the only photos I have on my phone as placeholders. I went through a lot of variations and modifications through this, which is why I did a mockup instead of jumping right into it. I kept faithful to his color pallete of white, blue and gold. Finding blues in his specific color was very difficult, but I tried to stay in the same hue range. You can't really tell with some of the Canva elements, but hopefully all the ribbon I ordered is acceptable in person! While I'm happy with the design for the most part, I haven't been able to decide on something I like for the bottom corner. I wanted to put my nui in the corner, but his big ass head would cover up the toploader. I have some leftover felt and I've been considering making a cute felt nui to cover up the space? I don't know yet, but I didn't want to make the insert completely symmetrical... I don't have much else to say here because this is just the mockup and not the final thing, I'll update when everything arrives.
3.1.26
I went to the mall with my brother today. Apparently there was a huge fight in the food court yesterday, but it was still crowded AF. Unsurprising for a Sunday... I don't go to the mall very often since I only care for a small selection of stores, most notably Miniso and Barnes & Nobles. My B&N sucks nuts and the manga section is 99% isekai slop, and the 'mature' section is very slim, but they atleast have Calico Critters... I wasn't allowed to have Calico Critters as a kid (they were too expensive), but now that I have adult money I can continue to window-shop for them. I walked around for a bit, but I only ended up buying 2 blind boxes at Miniso. The Kewpie Baby figure boxes have me in a chokehold! I have 10 of them, two of which are duplicates, but they're so damn cute!!! I'm mostly immune to blind-box propaganda surprisingly, I avoid them if there's even one prize that I don't like. Hot Topic and Spencers are two stores I typically visit (Unsurprisingly), but they were boring.. The unfortunate thing about liking a lot of "obscure" (for lack of better word?) genres is that Hot Topic becomes very mundane. The band tee selection plus whatever other shit they sell nowadays. The jewelry is meh, almost always too expensive to be worth it. Some of the My Little Pony stuff is cute however, but I don't need any jewelry. That's the crafters curse: "Why buy it for 15 dollars when I can make it with my 30+ dollars tools and supplies?" I do more supply hoarding than actual crafting, but it comes in handy sometimes!
I haven't gotten to go out in a while (life has been busy, car battery died, my mom's car feels funny to drive), and even though I quite hate the mall, it was nice to get outside. And get new toys. I didn't get a picture of my outfit, oops! Maybe next 'outing' blog post will include photos. I have miserably little phone storage right now, anyways..